My Journey

In the spirit of inquiry, let's take a look at our options. The most popular one would be to go with the flow and not let yourself be bothered too much. You're born into something or the other, with certain values inbued into your mind. After a purely evolutionary process, you have reached adulthood and are more or less used to thinking a certain way. Just ease into it. Settle in and enjoy the ride. You didn't cause the fucked up state of affairs and you certainly cannot do much about them. Might as well take any wins you get and stay in your lane. But to really enjoy the benefits of this one, namely the peace of mind and comfort, one does have to make a commitment. Tell yourself regularly that you are so and so from such and such. Define what your capable of, what your limits are, and stand by them. Be sure to actively reinforce this metaphorical moving castle and borrow down in the front lines to steer clear of any disconcerting elements in the world and hold your gurad u...

Sometimes I find it hard to be a person. Trying to understand everyone, weaving a stroy that fits into the  world's narratives, it can wear you down. That's why being a mindless animal is so enjoyable. No thnking, doing ot feeling, just being. I've learnt a lot about the world, and yet there's this endless stream of information. If you enjoy solving puzzles, there is no end to them in sight. I try to remember to let go of things as much as possible. I often feel like letting go of my dreams and ambitions.  There is nothing more satisfying to us animals than figthing for our own survival, in a natural habitat. Being surrounded by lifeforms, in a shared envirenment that belongs to everyone and no one. Such a place requires one to fight for their own piece of the pie. That is what we are designed to do. The modern world, by comparision, is incresingly dreadful and boring. There is little to no wildlife to be seen. No creatures to look up to or down upon. No sign of the liv...

It feels like I've changed a lot over the years, at least it does nowadays. The most frightening thing in my life has been the fact that I've never lived the same year twice. Thinking about it should at once make people shudder, or rejoice. Out of all the ways in which things have changed for me, the ability to hold on and let go of the things of my choosing has to be the most useful of all by far. I've certainly gotten a lot better at it. Personal development and growth is nice and all, but how insane is it to be a human being? It's hard for me to despair or take things too seriously when I was born into such a wonderful world. Some parts of it might be poor and ravaged by war, with deadly diseases and loss lurking around every corner, but the darkness certainly makes things more exciting.  I can gurantee you, militants around the world wouldn't be raping women and killing children on the streets if there was at least some thrill to be had from it. Yet such truths ...