My Journey

"It's not wrong to be selfish. It's actually the most beautiful thing a person can be.  To be selfish means to be yourself." - You tell me who said that in the comments without googling it I 've   heard many people being called selfish for many things, none of which could be considered particularly admirable. Unfortunately due to some incompetence, ignorance, and arbitrary occurrences we have arrived at a culture that misrepresents the value of selfishness and demonizes the supposed selfish individual. Not without good reason either, but my point remains. My point being that the word selfish, just like every other word you think you know, needs to be redefined. That's a great practice btw, notice how when you're reading something you sometimes work out the meaning of the word from the context in which it's used? Well, guess what? Most of the words you know have been learned in the same manner, by assumption rather than inquiry. By someone giving it to ...

Ever since I can remember I've always had difficulty in being consistent. Now I've always bought into the idea that, "You could be anything you set your mind to" and this difficulty always seemed to me like the biggest hurdle between who I've been and who I've wanted to become. Everything I've done seems to have happened in phases. Always fluctuating from anime, to gaming, to reading, writing etc. It seemed like the only certainty was that things are always changing. But the most apparent of all these twists and turns was my constant cycle of wanting to become better, a.k.a. obsessive self- improvement, to downright apocalyptic indifference, where I would just abuse my senses via food, drugs, pornography, or all of the above, expecting to be annihilated as son as possible, a.k.a. self-destruction. I'd say it would be best described as a cycle between boundless optimism and cynical nihilism. Phase 1  Phase 2. Repeat till death. Now I...