New Year Meditation

I'm a very healthy person. I love to feel deeply connected to my body and to ground myself in the never-ending present moment's blissful wonder. I'm always doing this effortlessly, naturally, and with ease, to the point where it is simply a happening that unfolds. I love feeling the support of my bones and skeletal structure, the strength and energy in my muscles, and the life deep inside my organs. 

I relish feeling connected to the world with every breath as the air passes in and out of my lungs, enriching my body with vital nutrition. I like letting go of all the stress and tension I accumulate in knots, blocks, and leaks once they have served their purpose of keeping me sharp, safe, and aware. 

I even enjoy and appreciate the thick layers of fat and the incredibly powerful, complex system that stores and maintains the energy to keep me breathing. I'm grateful for the light in my eyes, smell in my nose, sound in my ears, taste on my tongue, and sensations on my skin. I adore relishing food and drinking the ambrosias of this world that hug me from within and fuel my body. 

Movement bring me joy, effort gives me power, and breaking barriers makes me feel alive. I genuinely enjoy physical activity, whether it's walking, stretching, yoga, pushups (calisthenics), weight lifting (strength training), hiking, basketball/badminton (sports), cycling, jogging/running, workouts (endurance training), or simple hand-eye coordination (sketching, cooking, video games, pool, etc.).

Growth comes naturally to me as I'm always getting better with time. I have a healthy mind that loves to learn, think, analyse, dissect, simplify, break-down, compare, contrast, understand, remember, explore, discover, engage, interact, and experiment with the world. I love using my mind without becoming a victim to my identity, biases, and compulsive instinctual desires.

I enjoy solving problems and creating value. I have a healthy heart, one that has beautifully opened after decades of grief, loss, and lonliness. I love other people with all of my being, accept them as they are completely, and bring down walls to build strong bridges. I hug people, take them in, and give them kisses. I'm intimate and affectionate without getting needy or attached.

I love without measure and that love begins with me, completely effortlessly and organically. I shame myself for masturbating to dark fantasies of dehumanisation and control as I abuse my senses with the hyperstimulation of junk food, music, popular media, drugs, and alcohol. I do this, everytime I forget this final most important thing:

I am the boundless soul of the universe. More than a single, powerless, lonesome individual, doomed to be thrown around by some cruel planet's forces, I am the very engine of this entire reality, at my very core. The fun of life is in the limitations of the heart, body, and mind. It's only enjoyable to win when there is a real struggle, so don't forget to relish every step, breath, fail, and win!