Keeping The Streak Alive

I wanted to do a post on "The Death Mission" today but a lot of shit came up which kept me busy. So I'll just journal to keep the streak alive I guess. I've been watching a lot of Mr. Beast videos, and have gone through so many phases where my opinion about him kept changing. Ultimately though the most important thing that matters more than anything else is that I can learn SO much from the guy, and he's more than happy to share. That alone makes him a great dude. Glad to add him to my circle of friends.

Actually that makes of a great topic to journal about for today. That's why I love doing these man, you never know what comes up when you sit down to write them, and every day I get surprised just how constructive this ends up being, I'm sure it'll all add up in a big way over the next few decades. I've spent way too much time worrying about and wasting energy on other people. Trying to build some sort of relationship with them, trying to be friends or whatever. Now I see so clearly that whatever attracts on its own is all that matters at least on the personal level.

There's no point making any effort whatsoever to create and form relationships. Most of these people are fucking losers and terrible influences anyway. Who cares if they don't want to stay in touch or whatever? They're all a bunch of idiotic, small minded, weak ass, pussies, the whole lot of them. I'm not perfect either and that's all the more reason for me to focus on myself. Loneliness and connection be damned. It's all bullshit anyway. All that matters is what I focus on. I might only have one person who actually cares to and enjoys interacting with me, and let's leave him to be my only friend, because you only need one honestly. He's my good friend because we are so much alike, everyone else can get fucked and eat shit for all I care. 

Before when I worried so much about connecting with everyone as much as possible regardless of who they were in hopes of understanding everyone, now I see there's no point in understanding anyone who isn't interested in understanding me. It's a waste of time and energy, much better spent grinding to become better at my craft. All that matters is what and who I focus on. If I hyoer fixate on super amazing people who I want to be like and try to imitate them as much as possible, it would do me so much better than trying to stay connected to these fucking fools who are all just holding me back anyway. I mean honestly what a huge waste of time. 

I'll still be nice to them as much as possible, who knows when I might need them, but I was being stupidly idiotic when I was trying to make genuine connections with these fools. It's probably their dull ass energy that influenced me into being so weak as to think I need then in the fist place. They're all weak, slow, uninspired, cowardly, unintelligent, and basic, I promise myself not to engage with their bullshit any longer. It would help for me to be as ruthless online as well with all the other people I give my attention to and shit. I commit to only focusing on the most useful and constructive things, people, and ideas that are around. I'll focus on what I can learn and how I can improve myself from every experience I encounter. I have a ton of work now so let me go to sleep for now then.