A broken streak

Yesterday was a great day off. I decided I won't do anything productive at all to get some rest so I can continue to give my all for the next week. I talked to a friend, watched anime, ate good food, watched the new Avatar, and watched the FIFA finale. It was all so amazing. It was difficult not to do anything though because I really wanted to. I had built up to it the whole week after all. The habits were starting to form. The work was gaining momentum.

I didn't get great sleep last night and slept feeling hungry. Today I woke up late feeling lazy, ate breakfast asap, and didn't do shit. I didn't do anything at all. My room was a mess. When I tried to do something I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed by all that has to be done. Nevermind my basic obligations, but all the secondary things like cooking and shit. So I ended up lazing around all day, jacking off(literally too), and then over eating to relax. Now I pretty much feel like shit. It's late again and I want to wake up early tomorrow.

Since I decided not to do any work yesterday at all, I ended up beating my meat because what else was there to do? Couldn't play any games, didn't have much to watch and what I was watching just triggered me anyway. The point isn't to beat myself up here. Let's try to figure out what went wrong and focus on getting back on track and keep moving forward. Hopefully I can avoid the same mistakes in the future as well. I think it's good to not cum for at least a full month or maybe more. It was doing me good. 

I definitely need to physically take a break once a week but not necessarily in other areas. That's today's main observation other than some small ideas here and there. For now I try to sleep and start fresh tomorrow. No point ruminating at the expense of tomorrow's rest which I can nurture right now. 

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