What I have learned today.

It has occurred to me just now as I was reading Norman Lewis's Word Power that I am in fact highly motivated to learn things and I feel great joy in feeling growth. I have been trying countless ways to drive my own for as far back as I can remember without ever really sacrificing my sense of joy. In that way, I have learned everything that I know today organically. 

I recently made the transition from the culinary to a writing profession and am seriously considering the visual arts like comic book drawing and character design to one day achieve my dream of working with other people to create fresh, new, interesting, and most importantly, useful stories worth experiencing. I have become obsessed with my current need to do the legwork required to master the skills I will need to achieve that dream, much less to create the stories themselves. 

As such, I have tried many different things. I've started a new blog stemming from my familiarity with the written word about things I feel other people should know about, in my own attempt towards journalism, if you may. I've also started freelancing as a content writer and I must admit, I am less than satisfied with my returns from these ventures as of yet. I gain no pleasure in sharing work done by other people and hashing out the same old impotent reactions from the beautiful infinite capacity of the human imagination, intuition, and the wide range of emotions, to the dreadfully dead black letters and white sheets of written language. 

In a moment of inspiration though it has occurred to me that I would love to write each day about what I have learned right here. Not for the general public, but for me to appreciate what has struck me as meaningful each day. This will allow me to reinforce and focus on any idea or experience that impacted me and really soak it in. This will also give me an excuse to practice creating sentences on paper in a way that isn't absolutely dreadful to me. Now I don't actually expect to meet this goal every day, but I must admit, I absolutely love this idea. I can focus more deeply on the things I care about, without trying to worry about polishing the words for other people to read, and I can feel my own progress on multiple levels.

So to start off, today I learned a little more about the types of chicken eggs you can get in the US. From mass-produced ones like caged or the potentially misleading free-range eggs to the certified humane and the difference in the life experiences of the chickens in each. I also learned about the nutrients in said eggs, that I was wrong about thinking you can only eat 3 eggs in a day without straining your liver, and how the chicken's health affects our own.

I also learned about the importance of sleep, and some interesting things about intermittent dating, something that I have been trying to incorporate into my lifestyle on and off for so many years. In terms of skills I learned to be more metabolically flexible and how to develop that, as well as generally getting better at building any habit that I want over time. I realized that I do not in fact have to eat lunch at the same time every day, nor do I need to stick to my schedule of eating super strictly. All in all, I am happy and grateful for many things in my life. I got a few more good ideas I can use in stories and am feeling hopeful about future prospects. I still wish to give more time to drawing and developing my visual art skill set.

I am happy to discover this wonderful idea that might just allow me to go quantity over quality in my content creation. I hope this will allow me to get better overall and closer to my hopes and dreams. Another significant lesson from today was the reminder that I do not need to always be chasing people because I can be totally fine by myself for extended periods of time. Though I feel lonely and lacking love, some of these feelings are likely hard-coded in me biologically, and need not be taken too seriously to the point of becoming the cause of anxiety themselves. I had great sleep today despite having a nightmare in the middle of the night and being afraid to go back to sleep for a while, which was likely caused by the odd dinner choices by me at last night's wedding lol. That does it for this entry, hope to see me here tomorrow as well.